Everyone is fast asleep and I finally had time to catch up reading messages on the blog, Facebook, & text messages. Please forgive Alicia & I for not responding back to many of them. Just know that we appreciate all of them!
Briley has done excellent this afternoon. She finally had her first bites to eat since the accident. First there was some ice cream. And then chips & hot sauce! One heck of a combination! Her pain is becoming less & less as the day drags on. She lays in one position for a while and becomes uncomfortable, but she doesn't tell us because it hurts her when we try to reposition her. She is still running fever around 100.5 with tylenol. We had a number of visitors today and Briley stayed awake all day! So I hope that she sleeps well tonight, as well as Alicia.
To the emotional side of the story: You know when something bad happens to someone and you want to say something, but you don't know what to say. Well, that's the way I am with my wife. She is understandably taking Gloria's death hard. She is strong when people are visiting, but once everyone leaves, she lets it loose. She just wants to pick up the phone and call her mom, but can't. I don't know what to say or do. She saw things Thursday night that will haunt her forever. Her faith in God is incredible! Many people could easily turn their backs on their faith in this situation, but her's grows stronger. She is an inspiration to us all and she certainly keeps my faith in check from time to time.
As for the hospital stays, it almost seems like the norm, just something different. I hate to say that, but it's true. I am proud of Briley. She is one tough cookie! She has been so cooperative with the doctors & nurses for a kid her age. I've been telling her how proud I am of her, how big she is, and how much I wish I could take her pain away and give it to me. Briley understands what happened. Alicia had a talk with her today about Nana and explained that she is in heaven with Jesus. Nana has had her time here on earth spoiling her grandkids, now it's time for her to be spoiled. Gloria, and her daughter Patricia, and her oldest grandkid Mason are now reunited. If anyone knew Gloria, they know that she was one of the nicest people that you could ever meet. She really did put everyone else first before her.
As for me, I really don't know what to make of all of it. As the man of the house, it's my job to provide & protect. I feel like I've failed in so many ways. I know that none of this is about me nor should it be but it's like somewhere in life I screwed up and now I'm getting it paid back by hurting the ones I love the most.
We'll see what tomorrow brings. I pray that Briley will continue to heal and her pain continues to decrease. Hopefully Briley will allow Alicia to go back home tomorrow afternoon. Alicia needs to be with family for a little while and see her mom for the last time. Monday is shaping up to be a busy day at Cooks, so I will have to stay with Briley. It's going to kill me to miss the funeral. I had the best mother-in-law ever.
We are thankful and very fortunate that our kids are still with us. We are also thankful for each one of you for taking your time to read this blog and praying for us. The outpouring of help & prayers has once again been awesome! Thank you so much!